Random thoughts about being proud

There are days when I think the world is going to end. And then I realize it's my own inner turmoil. Such madness rolls around my head sometimes that it's hard to see clearly. Hard to see clearly the ones I love mean the best for me, even though it may not look like it at first. I've been through a lot in my life. A lot of it is secret, because that's how most lives are... full of 'secret' everyday lives. The part of life that is just the usual mundane blah blah blah part of life. The part that we rush through to get to what we think are the highlights, rush though to get to loved ones, rush through because we are not happy. And when those highlights fail us we are depressed. Don't kid yourself, you know it's true. So what is the meaning of life? What makes us truly happy? Is it the journey or the destination that we long for? This past year of my life has been one of the happiest and one of the most frustrating. I've accomplished a lot. I believe I am happy. But even happy people go through spurts of depression. Fights. Down time. Etc...

Here are my events in the past year that I'm most proud of, besides my everyday existence, my family, and my friends.

I've been fighting a low thyroid since 2006-7. Finally in 2009-10 they got me on my current dosage that has enabled me to live life normally and to finally lose weight and keep it off. I started slow with the Wii and walking and now have a gym membership that I used to use 3-4 times a week and now it's down to one with the madness that is Caleb's baseball schedule, Sean, Family, Vacation, Life. I fully plan on returning to my dedication in the fall.

I'm really proud of my legs right now... They are amazing! lol

Sean and I wear matching rings... on our right hand. :-) I love that boy. This is a photo during the color run. We just went through the blue paint station.

I did the Polar Plunge! Always wanted to, never had the guts or someone to jump with me. Sean is my Adventure buddy. We are two of a kind him and I. I love it. 

Last September I did the Mud run and sprained my ankle at Mile 1. Sean helped me through the rest of the 10k in the mud, hills, sand, water, trees, rocks... etc. But I finished. Smiling.

Newest Adventure was last Sunday. We did the color run at the state fair grounds. It was an ok run. The most fun was getting to look like this:

These are my public highlights. There are many daily ones like getting design files to print correctly. Making someone laugh or feel that they are amazing at what they do and who they are... Being a mom. Being someone. Being me.

A year from today I met you...

Thank you for being you. I can honestly say that I've never felt so complete and wholly happy. I love you!

A year from today...

We knew of each other. But hadn't met yet.