Looking for a good Charity?

How about a charity for single mothers/fathers who work full time, but make just over the cut off for state aid. Also, ones who don't receive support from their children's fathers/mothers. These people (me included) have a very rough time meeting their financial needs every month. So, call me selfish, but I'm going to give this a shot. I'm reaching for anything. Every month I get to the point of 'I can't do this anymore!'. I don't know what to do. Caleb doesn't even have health care because I can't afford the monthly payments, however I make about $200 over the state income limits for Medical assistance.

If anyone could help out with the following things I would be most grateful:

Gas and Food gift cards
Over due electric bills
Over due Child care bills
Health care for Caleb
Testing for Autism for Caleb or information on where I might find testing for free


If anyone giving would like a painting or babysitting or help around the yard for their donations I would gladly help out!

Two songs, they may be old, that describe how I feel right now...

Remy Zero - 'Save Me'

I feel my wings have broken in your hands
I feel the words unspoken inside

When they pull you under
And I would give you anything you want
Well all I wanted
All my dreams have fallen down
Crawling around somebody save me
And two warm hands break right through me
Somebody save me
I don't care how you do it
Just stay
Stay
Come on
I've been waiting for you

I see the world has folded in your heart
I feel the waves crash down inside

And they pull me under
I would give you anything you want
Well all I wanted
And all my dreams have fallen down
Crawling around somebody save me
And two warm hands break right through me
Somebody save me
I don't care how you do it
Just stay
Stay
Come on
I've been waiting for you

And all my dreams are on the ground

Crawling around somebody save me
And two warm hands break right through me
Somebody save me
I don't care how you do it
Just save me

I've made this whole world shine for
Just stay
Stay
Come on
I'm still waiting for you


Avril Lavigne- 'I'm with you'

I'm standing on the bridge
I'm waiting in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
There's nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but there's no sound

Isn't anyone tryin’ to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home?

(Chorus)
It's a damn cold night!
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I... I'm with you
I'm with you

(Mmm..)

I'm looking for a place
I'm searching for a face
Is anybody here I know?
'Cause nothing's going right
And everything’s a mess
And no one likes to be alone

Isn't anyone tryin’ to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home?

(CHORUS)

Oh!

Why is everything so confusing?
Maybe I'm just out of my mind
Yeah.. yeah.. yeah!..yeah.. yeah,
yeah.. yeah, yeah yeah,YEAH...
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I....!
I'm with YOU...
I'm with YOU...
Take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I!

I'm with you...
I'm with you...

Take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I
I'm with you
I'm with you

I'm with you

Something that needs to be said...

The awakening...

Going through old emails and finding my way to my friend Jon's blog I encountered an awakening that brought tears to my eyes. Lately I've found nothing really exciting about my faith or life. It has been incredibly hard and joyful too. In the times when things seem the most bleak there is always something that stands out of the gray and adds life and vibrant color. Like getting flowers in the dead of winter. Or tanning in the middle of January. Experiencing another country completely. For me, experiencing another country was only one of my bright moments this season. The one shortly afterward was my new job.

Many of you know of my trials with previous jobs. I loved the work, but my bosses and co-workers (only some of them) weren't what my ideal work place would be. I've moved around a lot in the sign industry. When, before moving here, in my entire job career my jobs number 3 and two of them were re-hires at different times. I've never felt at home.

But let me tell you about my new job. After losing my last job due to an anxiety attack and the fact I couldn't stop the tears from falling in frustration. I answered a craigs list add for a job I didn't entirely read up on. As it turns out, in the interview, it appears that they were looking for a sign painter. Actually painting wooden, sandblasted signs! Upon hearing this, in the interview, I was excited and pulled out my hand painted portfolio from college. I was hired immediately following the interview and started the job the following Monday.

I have to tell you, I have never been happier in a job setting as I do at Redwood signs. Sure, there are stressful times and things don't always go as planned. But the bigger picture is, is that I work with co-workers who are fast, want a good end product and strive for that in every job. My work life has been stress free since April 30th.

This is my bright spot in a time of colorless blah.