The weather today was awesome!

I have to say, I don't usually enjoy my LONG commute from Saint Paul to Osseo every day. And I can only imagine the horrors of driving it in the winter! But today, it was fun. The strange weather was amazingly beautiful. Double rainbow. Dark clouds ahead while bright sunlight fell and rain poured. Hwy 94 seemed to be transformed into a river and the cars, wheeled speed boats, racing over the water. The water thrown off the cars was beautiful. I wish I would've had my camera and a passenger to take the photo of the cars and the water. The photo I am using is not of today but as close as I could come to what I saw.

What a beautiful day!

Volkswagen and Apple...

I always thought that amazing things would automatically happen with becoming an owner of a Volkswagen.

For example, I thought that Volkswagen and Apple computers went hand in hand together somehow and if you bought a VW you would either need an apple computer and ipod or you were snooted at and then automatically pushed to receive a Mac computer to your own specifications and immediately receive an ipod with hundreds of songs already uploaded that would have an automatic hook up built directly into your VW. Therefore saving you from most definite snubbing from other VW owners and etc. Sadly, this is not the case. I do not own a Mac computer ANYMORE. But I do have an ipod, but that was bought a good 2-3 years after purchasing my VW. Maybe it's because I didn't buy my VW new that I didn't receive the Apple/VW welcome. However, I am happy all the same. I love my car, Maggie (short for Magnolia), and my little red ipod. My old Mac computer has been given away and now I'm with a Dell computer. Which I love because it's a flat screen and mostly because it was given to me by my Matt. (I paid for half of it after it was bought, but it's the thought that counts in the first place).

So there you have it. My random thought of the day. It's been a long time since I shared one of those. Man does it feel good! Hopefully there will be more of randomness and less of the total quiet and stale entries.

Looking for a good Charity?

How about a charity for single mothers/fathers who work full time, but make just over the cut off for state aid. Also, ones who don't receive support from their children's fathers/mothers. These people (me included) have a very rough time meeting their financial needs every month. So, call me selfish, but I'm going to give this a shot. I'm reaching for anything. Every month I get to the point of 'I can't do this anymore!'. I don't know what to do. Caleb doesn't even have health care because I can't afford the monthly payments, however I make about $200 over the state income limits for Medical assistance.

If anyone could help out with the following things I would be most grateful:

Gas and Food gift cards
Over due electric bills
Over due Child care bills
Health care for Caleb
Testing for Autism for Caleb or information on where I might find testing for free


If anyone giving would like a painting or babysitting or help around the yard for their donations I would gladly help out!

Two songs, they may be old, that describe how I feel right now...

Remy Zero - 'Save Me'

I feel my wings have broken in your hands
I feel the words unspoken inside

When they pull you under
And I would give you anything you want
Well all I wanted
All my dreams have fallen down
Crawling around somebody save me
And two warm hands break right through me
Somebody save me
I don't care how you do it
Just stay
Stay
Come on
I've been waiting for you

I see the world has folded in your heart
I feel the waves crash down inside

And they pull me under
I would give you anything you want
Well all I wanted
And all my dreams have fallen down
Crawling around somebody save me
And two warm hands break right through me
Somebody save me
I don't care how you do it
Just stay
Stay
Come on
I've been waiting for you

And all my dreams are on the ground

Crawling around somebody save me
And two warm hands break right through me
Somebody save me
I don't care how you do it
Just save me

I've made this whole world shine for
Just stay
Stay
Come on
I'm still waiting for you


Avril Lavigne- 'I'm with you'

I'm standing on the bridge
I'm waiting in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
There's nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but there's no sound

Isn't anyone tryin’ to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home?

(Chorus)
It's a damn cold night!
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I... I'm with you
I'm with you

(Mmm..)

I'm looking for a place
I'm searching for a face
Is anybody here I know?
'Cause nothing's going right
And everything’s a mess
And no one likes to be alone

Isn't anyone tryin’ to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home?

(CHORUS)

Oh!

Why is everything so confusing?
Maybe I'm just out of my mind
Yeah.. yeah.. yeah!..yeah.. yeah,
yeah.. yeah, yeah yeah,YEAH...
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I....!
I'm with YOU...
I'm with YOU...
Take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I!

I'm with you...
I'm with you...

Take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I
I'm with you
I'm with you

I'm with you

Something that needs to be said...

The awakening...

Going through old emails and finding my way to my friend Jon's blog I encountered an awakening that brought tears to my eyes. Lately I've found nothing really exciting about my faith or life. It has been incredibly hard and joyful too. In the times when things seem the most bleak there is always something that stands out of the gray and adds life and vibrant color. Like getting flowers in the dead of winter. Or tanning in the middle of January. Experiencing another country completely. For me, experiencing another country was only one of my bright moments this season. The one shortly afterward was my new job.

Many of you know of my trials with previous jobs. I loved the work, but my bosses and co-workers (only some of them) weren't what my ideal work place would be. I've moved around a lot in the sign industry. When, before moving here, in my entire job career my jobs number 3 and two of them were re-hires at different times. I've never felt at home.

But let me tell you about my new job. After losing my last job due to an anxiety attack and the fact I couldn't stop the tears from falling in frustration. I answered a craigs list add for a job I didn't entirely read up on. As it turns out, in the interview, it appears that they were looking for a sign painter. Actually painting wooden, sandblasted signs! Upon hearing this, in the interview, I was excited and pulled out my hand painted portfolio from college. I was hired immediately following the interview and started the job the following Monday.

I have to tell you, I have never been happier in a job setting as I do at Redwood signs. Sure, there are stressful times and things don't always go as planned. But the bigger picture is, is that I work with co-workers who are fast, want a good end product and strive for that in every job. My work life has been stress free since April 30th.

This is my bright spot in a time of colorless blah.

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Back from Paris and Iceland

It has been about 2 weeks since we came back to the states from Iceland and Paris. I wanted to move over there! Just send Caleb!!! (and some clean clothes). It was beautiful there! Both places. I fell in love with Iceland even before we landed and then just being there... What an experience! It's such a different landscape that it feels surreal and 'moonish'. Paris in April was wonderful! It was expected to rain the whole time we were there, but we didn't see a drop. It was mid 70's even some 80's. I'll try to write more about a few events separately in my free time!

Ever wanted to know how to make Captian Crunch??

Matt and I discovered the secret combination....


Leini's Honey Weiss beer and Pink Cotton Candy!
We discovered this phenomenon at the twins second game of the season last night. The game was fun, but this was awesome!

New found talent...

Alright! Break out those jeans that have no designs on them, and let me at them! I think I found something that is a hot item. Wait for it..... Hand embroidered back pockets of jeans!
I found this talent when I went jeans shopping and found that I had come home with boring pockets without a design on them. I immediately got excited! I can design pockets! And then sew them myself. Which I did and here they are! Isn't it brilliant! Let me know if you would like custom jeans pockets. Since I'm just starting I'll probably do them for cheap. :)

Funny stuff

I have to admit the artist from exploding dog.com is hilarious... Awhile back I posted something referring to his trials with his laptop. Now it's about the iron bathtub in his attic. Please read and enjoy:

Cast Iron Bathtub.

(it includes photos)

Must see movies

We've seen a slew of movies lately... Some I can't even recall. However I do know that the movie that's like 'A mighty wind', the new one from the same creators 'Things to consider' had Matt and I yawning and falling asleep. We did watch it, though, after a long day of shoveling the driveway and sidewalk twice soooo.... yeah. Not what we expected!

The good: 'The science of sleep', 'The Departed', 'Flushed Away', 'Little Miss Sunshine', 'The illusionist', 'The Constant Gardener', 'Dirty Filthy Love'
The bizarre:'l'enfant', 'songs from the second floor'
The Good and Bizarre:'Running with Scissors'

What to write...

What to write that would be interesting... I have no idea. I seem to have lost my knack of writing out my feelings and/or thoughts. Things have been pretty rough for me lately. Rough for me and my little family. We've decided to postpone the wedding. A hard decision, but hopefully a good one. I feel a little lost and confused on the whole subject. I also feel that it is a raw and gaping wound exposed to everything. And things need to change... it seems everything needs to change. And I'm tired, emotionally, physically, blah blah blah. Rough times always seems to happen in the winter. Long and depressing as it is without having to work through what life brings. Anyway, there are good things happening as well. Caleb is doing well in school, I have some job prospects in the works, however all of them involve moving to other states like Texas, Florida, etc. It's exciting. During these times of 'hardship' I feel that God lets loose blessings or 'distractions' to help us see that life is a full range of spectrums that happen at the same time. For example postponeing the wedding and having new coporate job openings at the same time. It's crazy!

I guess I don't really have much more to say. Prayers about everything would certainly be most welcome. Along with anyone's input on counselors would be most welcomed.

Upcoming Artshow!

Hope to see you there!

Riverview Cafe

Elf me! Elf me!

Hey check this out, I just made a total elf of myself. Check me out by clicking the link below.

Yes, it is me, and yes, it is hilarious!

ELF.

I got bored... sorry.

My Celeb 'Twins'.

What kind of soul do I have???

You Are a Dreaming Soul

Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you away from this world So much so that you tend to live in your head most of the time You have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all... But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficult You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you. Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses. Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others. Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life. Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, and Traveler Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

For lack of better things to say or time to say them...

What American accent do you have? Your Result: The Midland "You have a Midland accent" is just another way of saying "you don't have an accent." You probably are from the Midland (Pennsylvania, southern Ohio, southern Indiana, southern Illinois, and Missouri) but then for all we know you could be from Florida or Charleston or one of those big southern cities like Atlanta or Dallas. You have a good voice for TV and radio.
Boston
The West
North Central
Philadelphia
The Northeast
The Inland North
The South
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And She said Ouch!!!!

This is the event that awaited me 20 minutes after getting to work this morning. Stupid work, Stupid sign, Stupid razor blade!

Got to work started to peel vinyl off of a sign. I decided that it was too much to just peel so I went and got a razor blade to help with the process. As I was scraping the vinyl off I decided to go and get a new blade to see if it would help take the vinyl off easier. Well... the blade stuck and then gave way. I felt it hit my arm but didn't know how bad until I opened my eyes. There were huge drops of purple/red blood on the sign. I looked at my arm and thought "Sh**!" I ran to the bathroom and started to wash it out where even more blood came gushing out of the wound on my wrist. As I'm seeing the blood rush out of my wrist I'm hoping that I didn't cut anything vital like the 'suicide' vein(s) or any tendons. I grab paper towels and run to the owner's office (Brian) and tell him that I "think I need to go to the emergency room". Brian asked Jen to take me, and off we went. We stopped at a near by clinic and while the nurse said that the bleeding had been controlled by the pressure that I was putting on the wound, that they couldn't have anyone see me right then and to head to the ER in downtown St. Paul. Back in the car we went and headed down to the ER of United hospital. Matt met me there and stayed with me throughout the ordeal of getting stitches, cleaning and a tetnus shot! I was terrified. I am extremely afraid of needles and shots. So, the cut wasn't so bad when thinking about a needle and thread going in and out of my skin. Ick, ick, ick.

The PA (physician's assisstant) was really cool. We talked about the TV show LOST as she put numbing stuff on the wound along with the stitching up part.

I'm doing well. My arm is sore from the Tetus shot, along with the wrist that contains 8 stitches in beautiful black thread. :) It was quite a cut. As you can see from the pictures.

What a way to start a Wednesday!

Yikes!

In need of some tear jerking laughter!

Yes, I've seem to run into some dry ground lately. It's not cool being sick. Matt and I are both sick, and it sucks! Share your hilarious stories please! The big ones so far (and you might have to talk to the sharers to hear them properly... but still very very funny) Mark's escape from the dogs on the way to school (this is classic told by heather), The woman who didn't know how to drive involving Nick, Amy, and a school bus (told by Amy), The story of me locking myself and Caleb in a frozen shut car (told by me), Heather's recap of her trip alone through a car wash Under the title 'embarrassed all over again'. (which isn't really funny, seriously heather. ;) ), That one time at bible study when everything involved poo... there are a lot of funny things that have happened with my friends. I love them dearly for it.

But I do have to tell you about my wonderful husband to be. He's a very smart man, however, day to day things sometimes elude him. But this makes me fall in love with him even more, even if, at times, it is a little frustrating. Here are a few things: I put on a tank top and immediately Matt said that he loved the color on me, and that he's never seen me wear it before. I didn't say a word as I pulled up a picture of me on our Texas trip. Classic. The next one, I forgot to give Amy her birthday card. Matt said "she had a birthday?" I said "Yes, Nick gave her a birthday party." Matt said "Did we go?" (We hadn't because we were in the car on the way home from my parents after a weekend where we brought all the kids up to see my parents place and to meet a few of my relatives who live near by, so of course we couldn't have gone.) Yes, this is just one of the many reasons why I love this man.